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Wow so far 2022 has been eventful I will say. I started the year going to a revival, however on the second night I was hit with an extreme case of food poisoning. The bad thing, I gave it to myself. Be sure your eggs are good. Today a month and half later I ate them again for the first time. Next Covid hit both my Mom and I. We survived.

I do not know if it was being sick and run down or just being on full speed all the time but a very bad habit that I had thought I had left behind me resurfaced. Actually, two bad habits. I am a recovered quick tempered cussing machine. This past month it returned with a vengeance.

I will not make excuses for myself. I forgot that the Holy Spirit was sent by my heavenly father to help me do life. I am not alone no matter how it feels. I believe that Christ Jesus died for my sins. I also believe he rose again and sent the Holy Spirit to help us all.

I was reminded of this at a Sunday Night Revival Service. Yes, I said Sunday night. Our Pastor has been bringing in guest Evangelists the first Sunday of the Month this year. I am grateful .

Let me go back for just a moment to the morning. I confessed to an older woman that I was struggling. She is someone I deeply respect. She did not coddle me and say there, there God understands. She instructed me to get into the word of God, to worship and to pray.

I had a complete meltdown the day before. Too many stressors and I exploded. So badly, that for the first time ever I took my grandkids home early. I knew I had reached my limit and could do no more.

Back to the service, I had already had a long talk with Jesus that morning. I made a list of things that needed to change. I spoke with my mentor/friend. BOOM God used Mikey Cheshire to hit me over the head with his wisdom. He reminded me that we are dependent on the Holy Spirit for knowledge. We do not serve Christ alone. He is not a side gig he is our life. I had let life push him into side gig material. The Holy Spirit is our connection point between the human and the Divine. I am not sure if I heard the next part in the service or in a different lesson. The Holy Spirit will not live in an unclean vessel. OUCH! I felt like a very unclean vessel with my potty mouth and quick temper. I asked for forgiveness and asked the Holy Spirit to help me overcome. I know he will, but I must do my part as well.

How will I rebound. First, I will see what got me off track.

Life has changed again. I am responsible for taking care of Mother now. I am fighting resentments. Her life choices brought on some of her issues. She has a victim mentality. I have to pray about my attitude.

I have stopped taking a break/ reset at work which is not healthy for me.

I need to stop taking the boys and Mom places. I cannot handle it. I should always confirm if the places we go are going to be comfortable for her. I must do this in advance.

Steps I am taking to rebound:

Start and keep my day rooted in God’s presence.

When I feel ugly words or an ugly attitude coming, walk away, breathe deeply and pray for the Holy Spirit to help readjust.

Workout at the gym daily.

Plan days in advance and execute them.

Pray without ceasing.

Get back to some sort of break at work.

I am having a much better week and no outburst. I thank Jesus for sending the Holy Spirit to abide within and be my help!!

I pray that you find something helpful in reading my blog and that you know there is a God above who sent his Son to save us.

John 14:26 But the Helper, the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things and remind you of all that I said to you. New American Standard Bible

Good afternoon. Thank you for taking the time to stop by. I actually have a bullet proof coffee with me as I write this. Grab your cup of choice and let’s get this year started.

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This picture makes me feel fearless. My daughter took it for me one evening and it just makes me feel like I can do anything.

I have been trying to decide on my word for the year. It is fearless. My goal this year is to be fearless in pursuit of my goals. I want to accomplish three major goals this year and I do not want fear to hold me back. I was already pondering using this word, when at our Sunday Revival Service, Brother Dale Everett spoke on eliminating fear. Confirmation from the Lord that this should be my word. I know it is a bit strange maybe for a word of the year. Last year my word was Focus and I have seen others this year use courageous and determined. I suppose I could use a different word, however when I hesitate to do something I want to tell myself I am fearless and can do anything.

The Bible tells us 365 times to Fear Not. Why should we live a life afraid to move forward? Why should we be afraid to express our feelings? Why should we be afraid to say what we mean and mean what we say? Why should we be afraid to ask for help, a day off, a vacation or even an open door.

This year I will face my fears and continue on the path that I know God has for me. I may have to ask for help from others. I will be fearless, they will either say yes or no. If we do not ask for what we want, we will never get it.

I have asked my trainer to prepare me for competition by my 53rd birthday in March. She has provided me with new challenging workouts. She has also as nicely as possible pointed out that I would be further along if I would stick to my nutrition. I have listened to her. She is after all the expert. Why do I ask her for help if I am not going to do the plan? I went to a new gym this morning. I told myself on the way I was fearless I could walk into a new place alone and get the job done. I even asked a few of the other patrons a question or two. Normally I would be a bit uncomfortable, but I am fearless remember.

I am also going to stop being afraid of what people think of me. I am trying to be a light to others. I realize not everyone will like me or want to be encouraged. I will do it anyway. I will stop being afraid of trying to help other as I muddle through my own faults for fear they will judge me, or think I am a phony. I will obey the Lord and try to be a better person every day. I will devote myself to spending a little time trying to help and encourage others. I will write the book although I am afraid of letting people see just where it was, I came from. I know that God wants me to share. Some of it is ugly but I will do it any way. I will speak to others who struggle.

I will pray that somehow, I will be able to lead others to God. I want them to know that Christ did not just die for me, but for the whole world. We all can live a life free in Christ’s love if we will. It does not mean we will be trouble free but thank God we have a true leader we can turn to in our times of need.

I pray that each of your reading this have set goals for the new year. Not just resolutions but true goals. I have three major goals going into the new year myself. To prepare for the competition. I have no desire to be on stage. I just want to prove to myself that with God all things are possible.

I am going to pay off our truck by June 1. I will have 3000.00 more in debt paid off by December 01. This to me is 1 goal. My last is that I will make progress reaching others for Christ. One way it through this blog. The other is my book.

I pray over all reading this. God knows who you are. I pray that you are able to set clear goals. I pray that you seek the Lord first for strategies to accomplish your goals. I pray that we all face the coming year

FEARLESS!

2 Timothy 17

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Well hellooo there lol. I just wanted to end the year on fun and happy note.

I thought I would share with you some of the things that I do to try to keep my daily workout routine fun. The above picture was one I posted in one of my Facebook groups. I had just finished my strength workout for the day and felt accomplished and happy so….

What other ways do I try to make my fitness fun? One music of course. I also bought my grandson a little tykes barbell so he can work out with me. he needed it he said for his bench presses.

Now sometimes I lose track of my set count. So, if I am doing 4 or 5 sets of 10. I have no trouble keeping up with the 10 but the sets well that is a different story. I decided one morning that perhaps I should use what I have at my disposal to help me keep track of my sets.

So let me introduce you to my little friends:

I know quite silly but hey it works for me and makes me smile. It makes the same old routine a little fun. Guess what? If I am in the mood for a change I will switch it up.

BOOM! Race cars to the rescue. I have about a million in the exercise/kid’s room so why not. It brings the grands joy, so it brings me joy.

Yes, I even have a reward system in place to keep track of my daily accomplishments. One is I post to my Facebook post usually at the end of the workout so I can just be accountable. I am sure not everyone enjoys seeing my posts, but it helps me to keep at it, so I do it. The other well it is old school and a bit silly I suppose but it makes me smile and feel better about myself. It is also a good visual if I am letting too many days go by without exercising.

So, there you go a few little fun things I do to keep me focused and on track. There are days when I just want to throw in the towel. On those days I look at my chart, say good morning to the dinos and get it done anyway. I hope that all of you can find your own fun during your day. May we never grow so old we forget to find the fun and joy in our everyday lives. When we don’t feel like it exactly when we need to do. Smile at someone today bring a little joy to those around you!

Grief is a response to loss, particularly the loss of someone or some living thing that has died. I would like to add that it could also be a response to a love, limb or even a change in the dynamic of a relationship.

The loss of a loved one or beloved pet can cause you to feel intense grief. I have had to deal with this far too many times in my 52 years. I have also in recent years had to come to terms with the grief I felt in realizing a loved one is beyond my help and is no longer a part of my life. It has caused a different kind of grief but grief none the less. In most recent times I realize I am already beginning another form of grief in realizing I am losing my Mother somewhat by the disease she is beginning to suffer with my Mother as she used to be anyway.

This brings me to the question how do we handle our grief? Why do some seem to do better at it than others? What is the right way to handle grief?

From here on out this is strictly my opinion from my experience. It is not meant to hurt anyone or offend anyone. It is just the conclusion I have come to after many years.

The other night at dinner I asked about a friend who recently lost her husband. I was told she is doing very well. Some seem surprised at the answer. She told one friend that yes, she cried in the beginning, but she would not be crying forever. I admire her strength and I know her loving husband would be very proud of her.

It made me reflect on my younger self. I did not do so well when my husband passed. I was left hurt, angry and confused. Looking back, I can see that I did not handle my grief in a way that I am proud of. I however dealt with it the best way I could.

I drank to drown my sorrow. I screamed at God why? I rushed into a marriage that was a complete and utter failure. I pushed my grief to the back of my mind because I could not face the loss. I was hurt and I hurt people. The only way I was ever able to work through my grief was to accept it and face the feelings. I am blessed to have a wonderful pastor who is also my friend. He also served as a counselor, mentor and coparent.

There are steps they say that you can take to deal with your grief.

1. Acknowledge your pain.

2. Accept that grief can trigger many different emotions.

3. Understand that your grieving process will be unique to you.

4. Seek out face-to-face support from people who care about you.

5. Support yourself emotionally by taking care of your physical self.

I have said many times through the years to different friends, there is no right or wrong way to handle your grief. We all do the best we can at the time.

I believe in my heart that God helped me to deal with not overcome but to accept and live with my grief. He helps me every day to deal with this phase of my journey.

I would encourage you, if you are dealing with the loss of a loved one, do not make rash decisions as I did. For example, do not sell your home, unless of course you have to. Do not make the mistake of marrying or getting involved with someone just to keep your mind busy. I promise one day you will have to deal with the feelings. It is probably best for all involved for you to be in a healthy place before moving on. Seek the guidance of a counselor or pastor. Immerse yourself in the Bible. Read books that help you, in this digital age listen to podcast or online sermons to help you deal with the grief.

I ask you to be kind to others who are suffering with grief. Do not judge them. Try to be kind and compassionate. Be a true friend. At my worst time I had a friend who lovingly reined me in when I was about to fall off the ledge. I had some that just listened while I cried. I thank God every day for those friends. I pray I can be that friend to others. I truly believe we should reach out for help but please remember sometimes the struggle is so great we cannot reach out again please do not judge I truly believe people do the best that can at the time.

I would like to leave you with a few verses to turn to when your grief is strong.

Phillipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.

Psalm 73:26 My flesh and heart my fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Be blessed

I heard this statement this morning listening to Ed Mylett, whom I recently found by accident. It just really triggered my thought process. To me it goes right along with my question How bad do you want what you say you want?

I found a goals journal I started in 2017 and never picked it up again to journal just the goal page. Funny thing is some of my goals are still the same. I realize some goals take longer than others but I am taking full responsibility for the fact that I have not accomplished them all or at least but a huge dent in them. Do not get me wrong some have been accomplished I am just admitting that I have slacked on my part in achieving some of the goals.

2 Timothy 4:7 I have fought a good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Ephesian 6:11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil.

1 Corinthians 16:13 Be on the alert, stand firm in the faith, and like men, be strong.

I believe God wants us to fight to achieve our goals as long as they are in align with his will and his Word.

Too many of us walk around with our heads down timid and afraid to go after the things we want. The reasons are too many to list and different for each of us. Hear me when I say this raise your head fully embrace the power that God has given you.

2 Timothy 1:7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

I believe we should pray first and ask God for guidance in all things. I also believe that we should move, fight, go after the goals we wish to accomplish. How do we do that? I am sure that it will be different for each of us.

I know for sure you need to have goals and dreams. Write them down meditate on them. Pray over them. Then move! Do something anything at all to achieve the goal. Small steps lead to great change. Yes, it may take longer that we like. Yes, it may be hard. Do we serve a God who can handle anything and everything or do we not?

You want to lose weight find a nutritionist or coach! Go for a walk! Eat one less bad food a day better yet eat one good one in its place.

You want to be debt free, stop spending more than you earn, cut back on lattes and drive thru spending. Save 10% Save 5% Save something. Read a book on being debt free. Get an accountability partner.

You want a wife/husband write down everything you want in said partner. Looks, believes, etc. Get a good picture of them in your mind or if you have the talent draw her/him. God will give us more than we ask, if we ask in faith and follow him. Then get out there and meet people. They are not going to just fall out of the sky and land in your lap. You have to do your part as well. Be picky about where you get out to meet them. You want a compassionate person? Go volunteer where perhaps you shall meet someone. You want a good faithful Christian? Go to church, join an online community that shares your beliefs.

Every fight should start on our knees and then we should stand up and fight for the things we want. We should do it with the love of God in our hearts and hurt no one along the way. We should above all honor our heavenly Father in all things. If we walk down trodden and overwhelmed we are not honoring him. He is our healer and provider. He is our strength and he is our coach!

I am reflecting on my goals this month and am already moving forward. I am not waiting for a new year to start. It is a battle on some days, other days it is a piece of cake. I am ready to fight for my goals. I am ready to fight sin and lies and self-doubt and be the woman God wants me to be.

Get inside your mind decide what you really want. What is your purpose? What did God create you to be and do? We know we are all instructed to make his son Jesus known to the world. How we accomplish it will be different for us all. It will take guts, stamina, even some tears but we must fight to become and accomplish all he created us to be.

YOU BE THE FIGHTER FOR YOUR DREAMS AND GOALS. YOU BELEIVE THAT YOU CAN DO ALL GOD HAS CREATED YOU TO DO!

FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU WANT!!

Good Morning, so today as I am reflecting on compromise. Is it ok to compromise? To answer the question we must look at the meaning of the word.

1. settle a dispute by mutual concession
2. accept standards they are lower than desire
3. being into a dispute or danger by indiscreet, foolish or reckless behavior

I thought of all the times I did or did not compromise and pondered on the things that I will not compromise on.

Take the picture above not me the cow behind me. I did not compromise on this my husband did. He does not really care for this picture too colorful for him. If it were up to him everything would be tan or brown. Several months ago my daughter brought this home to me as I love a little color. We teased him for a while and he finally relented/ compromised and let us put the picture up. Now do not think that it is one sided as I have compromised quite a bit myself. He is a collector and I am not so the majority of our decor and stuff he has accumulated and displayed. I compromised as well letting him have the major say so in decorating with myself throwing little pops of color here and there.

Areas where I feel we should not compromise are the word of God and our personal integrity. The Bible is very clear in how God expects us to live a holy life. I cannot say that I am perfect in this but I do strive to do my very best. I do not lie, steal murder etc. In today’s world it is very hard not to compromise. One of the things I failed at will seem small to some. I was addicted to the Game of Thrones. Excellent acting and in my genre that I enjoy. It was also full of all sorts of things I should not have been watching. I did ask God to forgive me and I know that he did. Then ahh The Witcher came out and I was so excited to see it. I watched for 5 episodes daily and then on the 6th God told me I was compromising again. I stopped watching half way thru that episode and have never watched it again. The newest show I refuse to watch is Yellowstone. I am sure it is a very entertaining show, however I already know the language is very vulgar so I will not watch. I know God would not approve I also know that vulgar language was one of the hardest habit for me to overcome. I slip up enough on my own when I am overwhelmed I certainly do not need to hear it that frequently.

I am loyal to my friends and family and I will not compromise their trust.

The final example of compromise is found in 2 Samuel 11. It is the story of David and Bathsheba. I will not repeat the whole story but King David sees Bathsheba bathing on the roof and wants her for his own. He compromised his own integrity and honor to God. Don’t forget that David is a man after God’s own heart. We find that Bathsheba becomes pregnant and when her husband will not compromise on his convictions and loyalty to his fellow soldiers David sends him into a compromising situation. This cost Uriah his very life. So, who suffers when we compromise? Many people can but we ourselves must suffer the consequences of our actions when we compromise. David suffered as did Bathsheba as the child born of their sin died. He lost God’s favor and the respect of many. David also repented of his sin and God continued to bless him. I thank God daily that he does forgive us.

I wish that all things could be in black and white. There are some things that are exactly that way. The ten commandments and any command of Jesus are generally black and white. We have diluted some of the word to suit our own rules. I wish it were not this way but it is.

So the answer to my above question is yes sometimes it is good to compromise, provided you are not violating God’s law. Other times you should not compromise. So the answer will depend on the circumstance.

How will we now when it is the right time to compromise or to stand strong? The Holy Spirit with lead us to the right answer. We must stay rooted in the word and continue to pray for his guidance in all things.

My prayer for you today is that if you are facing something that you know will compromise your relationship with God, someone else or yourself, the Holy Spirit will fill you with wisdom and conviction to turn away from it and hold ever so tightly to the Lord who strengthens us.

I have been reading 5 Things Successful people do before 8 A.M. by Terri Savelle Foy. I enjoy her teachings mainly because she is rooted in biblical truths. As you know I am a big reader and have read many books on self -improvement. I especially enjoy her because she never uses foul language and she uses scripture in all of her teachings. As in all the books I read or speakers I listen to, I take what helps me and leave what does not apply to me.

Today the main point that stuck with me was. Someone is waiting on the other side of your obedience. Who are we obeying? In our case we are referring to obeying God but it can apply to anyone.

For today I am speaking on my obedience to God. I started this blog because I heard him over and over tell me to. I admit it took me years to obey. I do not recommend waiting. If God tells you to do something there is probably someone out there who needs what he is telling you to do.

I also felt in my spirit that it is not enough just to read the book, bible study or listen to the videos etc. but I also must read the word of God every day. I admit I have to make myself do it. Today it was Mark Chapter 3 & 4 and in Chapter 4 we find the parable of the Farmer who plants the seed. It is not my place to worry about how the seed grows but to plant the seed. At least that is what I heard from God this morning. I am not sure if anyone but me would connect what Terri said with what God put on my heart but he did put it on my heart that they are connected.

For many years I have felt that I should write a book about how I overcame the hardships that life threw my way. It has been a long road, God had me every step of the way. God gave me the title of the book this morning.

I hope to get the book finished by December 01, 2022. The name of the book will be Through Her Eyes. It will cover the time in my life when I met what I thought was my forever love. I lost him to drugs and finally to murder. It will not be an easy book for me to write. My prayer will be that it will help someone give their life to God, find forgiveness and become an overcomer.

God did not make us to just get by. He made us to thrive. We are instructed to spread the Good News. That good news is that God loves us so much that he sent his Son to die on the cross for our sins. All we have to do is ask for his admit we are a sinner, ask for his forgiveness and acknowledge that Christ died on the cross for our sins.

I pray that I will be obedient to my Lord. I pray that I help and not hinder others. I pray that anyone reading this will know there is a God who loves you. One who can help you overcome. One who can lead you in your calling if you will trust and obey.

I know I am bold in my ways. Fiery and blunt, some will not really like that and others say that is why they like me. I think most know where I stand. I will be honest and say sharing my heart with the world is a terrifying thought. Terri says that is when you know you are stepping out of your comfort zone. I will continue with my blog and Facebook page. I hope you can find something to help you along your way.

Be blessed!

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Well to say the last few weeks have been a whirlwind would be an understatement. I believe my last posts was a whine fest.

Fast forward a few weeks and lets see how things are going. For starters I was having no improvement on my health. I felt like I had a huge ball in my throat every time I swallowed. My moods were still kind of all over the place. This while on the medicine the M.D. prescribed. So… I called my natural doctor who bless her soul spent 2 hours with me. She put me on the most aggressive natural therapy program I have done to date as far as supplements go. This was on Saturday by Monday the lump in throat was gone. Tuesday night I had the best sleep I have had in quite some time.

I spent Sunday at Six Flags with one of my Grandsons. Yes I know I should have been at church. I prayed about it and talked to Jesus and decided the day with my Grandson was what I needed. We listened to Toby Mac on the way and had one of the best days together we have ever had.

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This trip he had a wonderful time, lost his fear and we rode and rode and laughed and had a wonderful time. Priceless. I thank Jesus for a blessed day.

Now I have beaten myself up about missing so much church, I realize this is a season in my life and right now on the days church is just another thing on my list of to do’s it is ok to stop and just spend time with the Lord. Please do no misunderstand me, we are told to gather together to worship and serve our Lord and we should but there will be times perhaps it is not plausible. That is ok! We should still reach out to our church family, try to find time to communicate and let them know we love them and miss them and still need their support. Get to church when you can. This season in life will pass and you can get back to your regular schedule in time. I know some will not agree with my opinion on this and I will love you anyway. I sat in the nursery a few weeks ago with the wrong attitude because I made it all the way to church just to sit in the nursery. I had to really pray about it and apologized to a few people about my negativity that day.

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I felt completely overwhelmed that day leaving church and that is when I decided to stop in my tracks and regroup. I prayed and then apologized to whom I felt I needed to. The both said no need we all need to vent sometimes. My Bible tells me not to complain. I figure I better pay attention to my Bible and appreciate my wonderful friends for understanding. I also decided that day if it is too much for me I will not make the drive, load up the Mom, babies etc and stay home that day. I will feel no guilt on that day and will do my best to be there when I can. I will listen to the online sermon when available or find another.

I also decided to see the natural dr., focus harder on my goals, research dementia and Alzheimer’s. Take the classes to handle the changes with Mom. Do the workouts for my own health and sanity. As the storm rages on I will cling even more closely to Jesus. He is not only at church he is with me everywhere I go. Sometimes it is just a deep breath before I respond. Sometimes it is clenched visit and a long holding of the breath to regroup. I always pray for him to tell me what to say or not say at that time. Sometimes I just say his name. I am back to starting my day in is word and presence and it sets the mood for the day. Do I have to get up even earlier, Yes sometimes I do but it is worth it. Do I miss going to church ? Yes I do, but right now this is where I am. I miss more than I attend. I can feel guilty and sad and worried about what other think of me or I can realize I have the power of Jesus to be joyful in all season and situations. People’s opinions of me are none of my business and does not change the reality of who I am. I am a daughter of the one true King and I will find my calm in the storm in him!!!

I will find out later today if my Mother in law will also be moving in with us. I will trust that God has me ready for such a time as this. I will admit to him when I am overwhelmed. I will let him be my comfort. I will be the best me I can be. I will not quit but find my calm in the storm in the presence of the one who gave his life for me.

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It never fails if you put yourself out there and say you choose to fly high, something will try to deter you from your flight plan. In my case this past week I was diagnosed with strep and my Mom also had to be taken to urgent care. So my flight has not gone to high this past week but I will not land I will continue to climb.

I did manage to get all of my strength training in. I only got 2 cardio in but I did get them in. This was in addition to taking a day and a half off to try to recuperate and then spend another three hours in urgent care with my Mom. She has swelling around her heart now and is struggling with keeping her oxygen up.

I will have to admit it is way more than I can comfortably handle and I have gotten frustrated on several occasions. I will be the first person to tell you I need Jesus. I need him daily. I need my church, going to church has always helped me be a nicer person. What surprises me is how quickly the old me reared her ugly little head. I though I had become a nice person / perhaps I am . I am not a candy coater or a sweetie little Susie Sunshine. I will give excellent care and treat others well. I will not hold their hand and have a pity party when the choices they have made got them to where they are. If that makes me mean then mean I am.

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I am contemplating my week and how to proceed with all the things coming at me.

First off you will be glad to know I give Jesus my cares, sometimes I find myself just saying his name or saying help me Jesus. You can not say ugly things when you are praising Jesus.

I also slept in today because honestly I was exhausted. Normally I would beat myself up over this but not today. I took 15 minutes talked to Jesus and planned my day. I also promised myself if the day did not go well I would just go with the flow and not loose my cool.

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Oh yes and wine I did have a glass or two of wine over the weekend. I do not recommend turning to wine or alcohol in times of trouble but this time it definitely helped to calm my nerves and soothe my spirit. Yes I talked to Jesus while I drank my wine. I know some will look down on me for this and I am sorry. I have a clear conscience and think that me and Jesus have that worked out. I did not drink both glasses at the same time and I did not drink a bottle, but I could have ( lol). For me wine has its place just not very often. It interferes with my training and I do not want it to be a crutch when dealing with life.

Anyways kind of rambling today I suppose. I just want to encourage you to keep flying even if it is a little low sometimes. Keep trying to fly high. Every set back can have a great come back if we continue to grow, learn and be the best version of ourselves we can be.

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Isaiah 40:31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

My lesson this week again came from Terrie Savelle Foy. She lists 7 traits of an eagles that will help us in our lives. I will not teach her lesson but just share that it did make me think about some things.

1. Am I going to fly high or low? Sometimes as myself and my dear Pastor know life can throw you an unexpected curve ball. Will we continue to soar higher or settle for a lower flight? Perhaps as one of my lovely friends answered we will hang out under the radar. I do think that has a place for us sometimes but I will not stay under that radar, I will regroup and spend time alone, no phone and no people. Just my and God quiet time to think and listen.
2. Am I giving God my all? Am I doing everything he has led me to do ? I am trying. I admit I slack in that department so what will I do ? I will follow the words I find in James 4: 2-3. It tells us we have not because we ask not, it also says we ask with the wrong motives, only asking for things that we will spend on pleasure. So right now I ask that God would give me courage and wisdom to really launch this blog and to continue with his other instructions not for fame or glory but to shine a light for other leading to the hope we have in Jesus.
3. How am I flying high? Am I flying according to the standard of Jesus or of the world? It is a very strange time we are living in. The world has taken all the things that we hold dear and tried to make them non existent. I am not going on a political tirade or anything. God tells us we must hold our selves accountable. My verse is 1 Corinthians 5: 9-10 I have written you in my letter to not associate with sexually immoral people- not at all meaning the people of this world who are immoral, or the greedy and swindlers, or idolaters. In that case you would have to leave this world. He tells us to judge inside the church not out side the church. I will continue to fly high. I have been immoral myself in my younger years. Thank God people prayed for me and led by example so that I do not participate in that way of life any more. I will also continue to love those I love who choose a lifestyle that I do not necessarily approve of. I will love them for who they are. I will pray for the confused young people I come across. I struggle with this daily. I see very young girls barely dressed and think good Lord where are her parents. Again I am not always mindful of how I dress so who am I to judge them. I will pray that God provides me with a fashion sense that I can be cool and not expose too much. To honor him not myself. I will not lie I love for people to comment on my outfits or how nice I look. I pray that God gives me wisdom to make choices that honor him not embarrass him. I pray that I remember that God made me unique and that I am his daughter and others opinions of me will not change my reality. I am going to try to fly a bit higher, with God’s help I know I will! I pray that you will too.

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