THE FLIGHT

It never fails if you put yourself out there and say you choose to fly high, something will try to deter you from your flight plan. In my case this past week I was diagnosed with strep and my Mom also had to be taken to urgent care. So my flight has not gone to high this past week but I will not land I will continue to climb.

I did manage to get all of my strength training in. I only got 2 cardio in but I did get them in. This was in addition to taking a day and a half off to try to recuperate and then spend another three hours in urgent care with my Mom. She has swelling around her heart now and is struggling with keeping her oxygen up.

I will have to admit it is way more than I can comfortably handle and I have gotten frustrated on several occasions. I will be the first person to tell you I need Jesus. I need him daily. I need my church, going to church has always helped me be a nicer person. What surprises me is how quickly the old me reared her ugly little head. I though I had become a nice person / perhaps I am . I am not a candy coater or a sweetie little Susie Sunshine. I will give excellent care and treat others well. I will not hold their hand and have a pity party when the choices they have made got them to where they are. If that makes me mean then mean I am.

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I am contemplating my week and how to proceed with all the things coming at me.

First off you will be glad to know I give Jesus my cares, sometimes I find myself just saying his name or saying help me Jesus. You can not say ugly things when you are praising Jesus.

I also slept in today because honestly I was exhausted. Normally I would beat myself up over this but not today. I took 15 minutes talked to Jesus and planned my day. I also promised myself if the day did not go well I would just go with the flow and not loose my cool.

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Oh yes and wine I did have a glass or two of wine over the weekend. I do not recommend turning to wine or alcohol in times of trouble but this time it definitely helped to calm my nerves and soothe my spirit. Yes I talked to Jesus while I drank my wine. I know some will look down on me for this and I am sorry. I have a clear conscience and think that me and Jesus have that worked out. I did not drink both glasses at the same time and I did not drink a bottle, but I could have ( lol). For me wine has its place just not very often. It interferes with my training and I do not want it to be a crutch when dealing with life.

Anyways kind of rambling today I suppose. I just want to encourage you to keep flying even if it is a little low sometimes. Keep trying to fly high. Every set back can have a great come back if we continue to grow, learn and be the best version of ourselves we can be.