MISSING IN ACTION

Hello friends it has been far too long since I have given any time to this blog. I am getting back on track. I just got derailed for a bit.

I will just fill you in on what has been going on with me and I have dealt with it. My work got extremely busy. I was still trying to keep up with my caregiver duties and taking care of myself. I struggled with it.

Taking care of a parent with dementia is very hard. Each day can be totally different. I have never been a very patient person and I have struggled very much the last several months with a short temper and outbursts of anger.

I have not asked God why because I already know there is something in all this I need to learn. I wish I could say I am that sweet individual who handles everything with a smile. If you have paid attention lol you know that is not me. I do try very hard to not let things irritate me. It is what it is I say.

Time has not been my friend, or should I say I have not quite got my schedule where I would like for it to be. I will say I did the best that I could and when I felt I could do no more……I ran away to reboot.

I was blessed to have a condo available for me to spend a week at the beach. We trailered the Harley and spent a week relaxing and riding up and down the beach. I spent hours just sitting in the sand. I visited with an old friend and made three new ones. This was the 27th year these four have made the beach trip. They made it very enjoyable. They are so full of life and laughter. Such a blessing. I also had time to read my bible, do a bible study and just listen to the peaceful ocean waves. I needed it desperately. There is just something about the ocean that makes me feel closer to God.

I was not totally slack I did give a message on a Wednesday night for the Pastor so he could have a break. I spoke on finding and staying in your lane. I will write soon about the things I covered there.

I have been back home a week. I must say after a three-week hiatus from working out, I am back in the gym. I was very sick the first week home. I am sure part of it was the lack of my exercise regimen. I am happy to report I am on an eating plan and have made it four consecutive days to the gym. I am already feeling so much better. I am also able to stop and handle things better. I am learning to not always respond immediately but to reflect. There are some things in life we can just let go. Life is too short to sit around and be a miserable, angry old bitty.

I am glad to be able to say that I did not stay derailed. I took a break and reflected. I read several books to help me get back on track. I am determined to live the life I want while dealing with a few things I had not planned for. I know that everything could change tomorrow. In the blink of an eye things can happen. They can also happen when you neglect to take care of the things that matter most.

I will continue to cling to Jesus. I will continue to encourage others anyway I can. I will reach out to trusted friends and mentors when I need help. I admit I am not a superhero. I will say when I can do no more.

Please be encouraged if you are struggling or overwhelmed reach out for help. Talk to a trusted friend. Pray and God will tell you who to speak with. I have a precious friend at church, we normally tease each other a lot, on this past Sunday I felt led to confide in her my anger issues. Guess what she had been struggling as well. We prayed for one another right then. I am happy to report that as of last night both of us have done much better dealing with anger.

I pray over all reading this post that in this crazy chaotic world we find joy. That we focus on the things of God and not the things of the world. I pray blessings over you all.