As I sit back and enjoy the sound of the waves, I can feel the water on my feet and the sand on my skin…. No not really. I t would be nice if I could tell you I have been on a wonderful sun filled beach vacation. However, since I do not lie I better not tell you that. I can tell you that I have been in survival mode. I am doing my best to adjust to all the things life throws my way.
Life is full of ups and downs for all of us. Tristen and I managed to make our annual Holiday in the Park trip. Wyatt and Haleigh had to miss out because Wyatt was not feeling well. We had a wonderful day. I enjoyed our time together and was looking forward to my next weekend trip to see Scarlette and Owen and parents lol in New Braunfels.
I had noticed Mom was not quite right, she said she felt fine, she was not running fever and all her vitals were normal. So… I took her to my brother and sister-in-law and headed out to see my kiddos. We arrived late Friday afternoon and had a great night. We enjoyed an incredible drive-thru Christmas Park, had dinner and of course went ahead and opened presents. I had wanted to wait but…. God knew we did not need to. I was out voted praise the Lord. You see the next morning as I was getting ready for my big play date with the Grands, My sister-in law let me know something was just not right, my Mom could not walk by herself and was very confused. I had them take her to the ER, hugged my precious kiddos and headed home as fast as I could. The decided to wait on me to get there before they released her, for that I am grateful. As I arrived they were making plans to send her home…but God. I knew in my spirit, she was definitely not right. I told them I was not comfortable taking her home in the shape she was in. You see with her condition (dementia) they assumed how she was at the moment was how she always is. They needed me to tell them her baseline. Thank the Lord again they listened it probably saved her life. We spent Christmas in the hospital and two weeks at Rehab. Then home with home health care. I am forever grateful for them. I am finding her a bit off again, so today I will contact Dr on her behalf.
I also had to deal with a couple of very huge losses. I lost my ex father-in-law. Covid had kept us apart now for quite a long time, however I always checked on them we have always stayed in touch. I love them, I say them because my mother-in- law survived. I am praying for her because she has entered a new time in her life. I also pray for my sister-in -law whom I love dearly too. I am thankful he is no longer in pain. I pray for the pain to ease for those that he left behind.
I wish I could say that was the only loss. I can not, you see shortly after this loss I was awakened by a phone call. You know the one you see the caller and you think Lord please no, even before you answer. My heart was already on alert, I was so afraid it was my precious Mommaw. She is another that is always close to my heart, even though life has not allowed me to spend the time with her I once did. It was not, it was that our Patrick, had decided to take he Mother’s car and he had a horrible accident and we had to stop everything and make arrangements for this. I do not question why these things happen, I trust that God knows far more than I. I trust he saved our little Paddy from something far worse. My heart does break for the loss, for my beautiful niece who tried so hard to make a better life for them. Yes he was young, way too young, he made a bad decision and it hurt so many. Oh, that we would all be more careful of the decisions that we make. I had a friend say why do they always call on you? I do not know, but it was my greatest honor to help them when they needed me. I did not do it on my own strength, you see I rely on the Lord for that. I am also very blessed by a wonderful church family who stepped up and showered this family with great love. If you do not have that kind of support system believe me, you need one.
I spent most of January and the first week of February sick and run down myself. I wonder why? This picture above represents to me a circle of friends that I have had to put on the back burner for so long. They are a wonderful group of ladies, who help me to become better. They do not only focus on themselves, but they try to help those around them. They serve our community with poise and grace. I almost felt like me again. It was a wonderful night. Did you know more women die from heart disease than all cancers combined? I did not, so now I do and am willing to help them get the word out.
I am slowly getting back into the swing of things, I am trying to make more of my community events. I just stopped everything for a while. It was a pity party of the mind I think. We all get overwhelmed, we all get run down. I have said it before and I will say it again. Do not stay down, get back up and try again. I am learning to enjoy where I am not where I want to be. Oh, now do not misunderstand I still have goals, I am still going further but I am going to be happy where I am while I make the journey.
Be blessed and be a blessing my friends.
Coffee With Ms D 