Hello and thank you for reading. I am not sure where the title of this came from. I like these pictures of the water flowing so let’s roll with it. I just wanted to update you on my progress these last few months. I know I have been a bit slack in writing, I will get it on track, I am determined to give my blog my attention.
If you keep up with me then you know I have been on a fitness journey for a while. At the beginning of the year I decided to switch up my approach. I still follow Nicole Wilkins and get advice from her and her trainers. Her community is awesome and who knows one day I may do another one of her challenges. I have going to her Camp as one of goals. I know however have an advisor with 1st Phorm. I check in with her weekly and am almost done with my second 8 week challenge with them. I have to say both are excellent companies! I have been getting my strength training and and walking daily 45 minutes to an hour. I have even been drinking the water.( we all know that is a big deal for me). I am glad to report I am finally getting some results. It has not been fast or easy. I have had to put in the work and make better choices.
I also am still taking care of my Mom full time in addition to working full time. Dementia is a beastly disease. We have good days and bad days. In some ways it is a blessing. You always think you have a new outfit, or a new meal. I think I have finally adjusted better. Well I am handling things a bit better. I had to get a little help with that. It can get very frustrating repeating your self over and over. It also is hard to watch them slowly fade away. My doctor talked to me for over a year trying to get me to take something to help with my anxiety. Anxiety I told her no way I am just mad and hot tempered. Nope she said that is how you express your anxiety. So… I now take a little something to help. I also have kept up with my daily meetings with Jesus. There is no shame in having to have a little extra help, but I know where my true help comes from. It is in his presence and his word. I am still having to pivot and shift as things change pretty quickly sometimes in this situation. She is moving slower and slower and the things I use to could take her to do are really not in the cards for her now. She and the doctor both think she is better off with me as long as I can handle it and care for her. I will continue to do my best.
Why share all this, because I can lol. Not really just a little Miss D humor. I share for those of you who think things can not change. They do change sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse. It is not the change we must worry about. I have finally accepted it is our response to the changes, events or others that we must work on, not worry about but do our best to correct our actions and responses when they do not line up with the word of God. I wish I could say I am very good at this, I am not, I am still a bit too harsh and impatient. The difference is I am catching it sooner and try to correct my direction.
I will also let you know that back in March my husband had a heart attack or actually a hypertension emergency. Life stops at that point, when that happens you just stop and take what is coming at you to the best of your ability. My kids came and did their best to take care of me. My brother and sister-in-law took care of Mom. I could not have done it without them and the prayers of friends and family. Stressful is not even a good word for that weekend. I will not go into details but meds and misinformation almost did us in. I have had to truly pray hard about things, but God has given me wisdom and provided answers for me. I am a support to my husband must he must be the one to take the meds and do what the doctors say. He has done very well at this without me nagging him at all. You see once upon a time I would have let him have it. That is not a help to anyone. I chose a different path this time and it is going well.
A quick note here we were about to embark on a path we were not quite sure was for us. I had been praying for must to God to give clear direction in this matter. Even though at the time it did not seem like a blessing, the fact that the medical episode happened gave us our answer and we did not proceed on that particular path. It has also opened the door for us to work on our communications skills with one another. It is not easy to be in a relationship of any kind, but marriage can be extremely hard work.
You have to chose everyday to love and try to understand the other person. It is hard work for both people. We have not had a perfect marriage but we are still here doing our best under the circumstances. He has been a great blessing, helping with my Mom, but it is not easy for him. He lost all his privacy, his blue chair, our time to just go do whatever we want. I know this is just a season and this time shall pass too. Next week we will thankfully get to go reboot. A week away from responsibility and the salty air for me. I already have a church to attend at the beach and new Bible is ready for my reading or I can take my Fire Bible either way God will still get my time. I have better days with him.
I have to get back to work. My goals for this week will be to get prepared for trip and decide what my next fitness goal will be when the current challenge ends. If you have any ideas on new goal let me know.
I pray over all who read this, that you would find peace in the chaos, answers in the confusion. I pray you continue to grow and pivot. Above all I pray a life centered on Christ, in a world where that is not normal then do not be normal. I pray that the Holy Spirit flows through your life and provides all your needs. Amen
I am flowing on being the best version of me I can be!!!
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